Happy weekend y’all!


Yes I may be in denial about a lot of things that are happening in my life right now.

But holy shit, acceptance is not an option for me right now, psychologically.

So, you only live once (I only quote this because Adam Levine sang it), and on my 25th year, I feel no need to be outright acceptance to every single thing in my life.
I feel no need to get a boyfriend, no need to make wedding/housing plans, no need to be “worried about my future”.

Who knows? Maybe I’ll die next year. Maybe you’ll die next year. Why bother?

30, single, driving an Audi, I could so live with that dream right now.
Why would you wanna worry for me?


That’s right.
Because nobody else can love you better.





“And I know my opinions on things. So I’m looking for someone who knows that part of me and who won’t be intimidated.”

– Dakota Fanning

2012 :D


My PINK Chinese Year New :D


This was Ladies Night, if I remember.


Chinese New Year visiting with my girls ❤❤


Dinner with my Dowed ladies, awww I miss them!


Okay this is very significant – My $10 mole removing experience, which technically could possibly changed my life as they say that mole (especially those on face) are very auspicious and could signify something huge in your life.

I removed mine!


Lewis and I! Strangely nice because this is the year that I started going party with my cousin, whom prior to this “reunion”, barely spoke to me, not even during CNY and is considered a rare guest in my family gatherings.

But now, he’s already pretty much as ass to me (in a good way…).

This is a significant year for my life because I fell in love with SALADDD. Something that I’ll never ever touch before this.

And this is the year that I went REDDDDDD ❤❤



My BFF Jeannie who survived all my major ups and downs with this year. We got really really close this year and she’s someone that really warms my heart deeply ❤❤

She’s the one who held my hand the entire time while I cried over a heartbreak. The one who came all the way to the driving centre to pick me up when I called her and told her that I had failed my driving test and had also found out that my (then) boyfriend had cheated on me and I can’t handle the overwhelming emotions anymore.

She’s the one who made the taxi driver turn round and round while we figure out a place that I could settle in.

And then solemnly held my hand the entire time while I sobbed endlessly and disgustingly on my bed.

Babydoll I ❤ YOU!


And here is Angie whom I caught ArmyDaze and endless movies with. She’s my sushi/movie buddy of the year :D


This is a picture that I really love of myself and felt that this period could have possibly been the prettiest I can ever be. I was definitely at my slimmest and best hair condition ❤❤


And I started baking cheesecake and tiramisu (which I’ve stopped lately due to laziness.)

This period (April – September) is the period where I was rather happy because someone came into my life. Nevertheless of how it ended, what mattered was that I was indeed happy while it lasted:






Derek Lai, you may have been a jerk towards the end, but I guess it’s safe to say, we had a good run.

He’s the first boyfriend I had that had a tattoo, that drove expensive car, that cooked really delicious meals for me, and one that actually rather inspire me while we were together.

So I would say, yes we had a good run while it lasted.


So here’s one major mistake I committed in 2012 – PERMED MY PRECIOUS HAIR. Omggggg I feel like dying everytime I think about it :(
It totally made me so ugly and totally ruin my otherwise perfect hair.

I partied, hard, as hard as all these years that I’ve been!


My girlfriend got engaged! Younger than me, and also one of the first of my girlfriend to have gottenengaged!


And I made some amazing colleagues this year! Especially Kel, who has been a huge part of my Somnotec life.



MODERN FAMILYYYYY! My new love of 2012.

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Oh and I finally got to attend the National Day Parade this year which was fabulous and such happy event! (courtesy of Mr Derek Lai)


September: I finally straighten my hair. Mad happy that I look so much normal now.

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September also marks the arrival of my new lovebun – Le Xuan! My little koala bear who is staying at my house until she’s old enough to go school. Such a bundle of joy. Always looking forward to come home to her crying and also little cutie face ❤❤


October! MY MONTH! It’s my annual birthday month!

This year’s celerbation was at Marina Bay Sands, which is like sooo expensive and not worth it fyi.

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Of course, not forgetting the awesome theme – PIN UP GIRLSSS ❤❤

And then my second birthday celebrations with my baby dolls. It’s always the best when we’re all together, happy and chirpy :D

And guess whose concert we went this year! DAVID GUETTAAAAAAA!!!


And then I started curling my hair again which made me look so good but takes like 1 extra hour to prepare.


And a certain mister appeared, again.

This is also the year that I went USA! Such a major event! Flying solo all the way to the other side of the earth.

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Baltimore, with Hurricane Sandy. I survived a hurricane! Beat that.

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Finally visited Grand Central Terminal where Justin Timberlake did a flashmob for Mila Kunis on Friends with Benefit ❤❤


And of course, finally finally arrived at Central Park after endless episodes of FRIENDS. Really, such a bucket list.

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And at 24, I finally had my first snow experience. And it’s smack right in the middle of NYC.
I can still remember what it was like, and how fabulously beautiful it was that I literally wanna cry.


Yes Statue of Liberty.


And the more travelling for work. It’s a fruitful year I believe.


More partying with my partner-in-crime all the way till end of the year❤❤




Such major accomplishment because I wanted it so badly and it hasn’t been easy! It cost me almost $3k to get it and I just really wanna cry like boohoohoo when I finally achieve it.


Ah ha, my first car wash! You have no idea how symbolic it is!


My second major event of the year, MY BFF ASKED MY TO BE HER MAID OF HONOR!

For years, I waited for her prince charming to come. And for months, I waited for her to ask me to be her maid of honor ❤❤

Last but not least, our annual Christmas celebration – Green & Gold is our theme for this year.

I ❤ 2012!

You’ve taught me so much – to be strong, to have trust, to have faith, to survive whatever that may befall on you.




RT @WomensHealthMag: “I’m 31 years old, I own a home, live alone, I’m single—without any children—and I am HAPPY.” Are you?

An article that made me miss my single life very much.

Oh the freedom, the independence, the capabilities, the 100% focus on nth else, the utmost love for myself, the place where no one bothers me, no one can reach me……. Etc.


Fight back!

Top 5 Times it sucks to be attached!

5. That time you have to figure out what in the world you should give his picky mother for Christmas, and your friends just get to blow their end of year bonus on new shoes.

4. That time a sexy guy on the bar stool next to you is flirting up a storm and he looks like a really good time. Meanwhile, your boyfriend’s current idea of a hot makeout session is having you scratch his back while he lays on the couch in his old, stretched out boxer briefs. (You still love him though.)

3. That time you’re having a huge stupid fight in Target and you’re so mad at him you could scream. You could have just bought the freaking paper towels and the cereal that you like on your own with no drama. Blerg.

2. That time he really wants to have sex but you just had a huge burrito and all you want is to be left alone.

1. That time your single friends forget to invite you out to their Friday night dancing and karaoke session because they assume you and the BF are having your usual pizza and Netflix night. Which you are, but those beasts could have at least asked. How dare they have fun without you.




What’s the point?
Cherish what you have before it’s gone.

Okay I’m still stalking him. Hee

P.S: It’s a medicine pouch I hand-made for him when he started his cabin-crew career for him to bring everywhere with him. Medicines were included!


5 Moments To Hate To Be Single

5. That time you’re at a big family dinner and your cousin Julia is like, “What about you, are you seeing anyone?” and you make a defensive joke while your mouth is full of food.

4. That time your friend’s boyfriend gave you unwanted tips on how to be more appealing to guys (e.g.”You just gotta be more chill”).

3. That time you’re browsing perfume and body products on Valentine’s Day and the cashier asks you if you’re “just doing you” this Valentine’s Day.

2. That time you talked to a dude with a long grey ponytail for an hour at a bar about how some guy wasn’t texting you.

1. That time some guy wasn’t texting you.



Today is one of the day where I came back home & truly wished there was someone on my bed waiting for me to cuddle.

I was so beat. I can hardly walk another step. Feet were sore from the whole day work.

Came home to see a pile of clothes waiting for me to iron. Mom has decided that she won’t be ironing our clothes anymore. Just adds on to the frustration I already harbored deep down in me. So what? Now she’s on strike? Okay, fine.

And my back was so damn aching I need a massage.

All in all, I need someone who smells nice & is very clean, big size yet small enough to squeeze with me in my tiny single bed, doesn’t apply gel on his hair, very warm body with huge arms & biceps, don’t need a face, to cuddle me to sleep tonight.

That would be awesome.
And tomorrow morning, automatically disappear like he never existed. So I won’t have to entertain him or make him breakfast or anything.

I can a man-doll.

Oooh I’m feeling like my PMS is comingggg.
Damn emotional.

Today Nawal asked me if my PMS is the emotional type or the angry type.
Without thinking I immediately replied angry type.

Which was kinda true to some extend. But I think this month is gonna be more like emotional kind. Which I truly hate because it sucks.
At least if I am the angry type, I can throw some plates or kick some balls. Being emotional means taking the anger out on myself.

Imma read to sleep now.
Oh dreading Friday’s trip.

Aku cha-kap Malayu

Don’t understand title never mind.
I understand can already.

As I was saying, was complaining to my current-shrewd-wife-best-buds Adrian about how disgusting the male-lead is (muthafucking ask the wife to sign divorce papers when she was hospitalized after a car accident! Bastard max!), was typing his name “Ruifan” when my iPhone auto-corrected to “Ridwan” which was an epic LOL moment.

It’s as if like I’m so in the Malay mode (everybody knows I’m gonna marry a Malay someday) that my iPhone is auto set to the malayu mode & typing of any chinese names is not allowed by the phone itself.

Okay let’s welcome Wednesday.

Was telling Adrian that I’m not gonna watch The Shrewd Wife tomorrow as its gonna get me so mad (I got so mad that I rage-dialed Adrian [“did you see that!! Did you see him asking her to sign the papers!!!”] when I merely saw the preview for tomorrow, imagine watching the scene itself.) and was telling him I’m gonna watch “Hangover” instead on Ch 5.

But he convinced me that I should watch because after this episode it’s gonna be uphill & the wife’s gonna plan her revenge (WHAHAHAHAHA!) so I should watch as its the climax.

So I’m very troubled because Hangover starts at 10PM too.

And then suddenly realise….


Omg I’m turning into Bridget Jones.

Omg I’m gonna be eaten by my cats when I die.

But yet still thinking about said sad problem!!

Okay gonna switch in between the 2 channels.
CASE CLOSED. *insert satisfied grin*

My next big problem is gonna be what color socks to wear tomorrow night.



Saw this in and was totally freak out by it!

10 Nasty Habits That Can Turn Someone Off On The First Date!

1. Licking Your Fingers
I don’t care if you’re eating chicken wings in a barn, loudly licking your fingers (and then reaching that same hand back into a communal bowl!) is Life is not a Carl’s Junior commercial!

2. Cellphone Dependency
Not being able to put your cellphone down for more than 5 minutes at a time is a huge turn-off, especially when you’re supposed to be getting to know someone.

3. Burping
If it’s a genuine, uncontrollable bodily function, then just say “excuse me.” But if it’s at all forced or prolonged, save it for a few months in?

4. Picking Your Teeth
If you wouldn’t do it in front of the President, don’t do it in front of your date.

5. Cracking Your Fingers/Neck/etc.
You’re either not the type of person who is driven insane by the sound of knuckle cracking, or you are. Assume that your date is.

6. Asking a Question, and Not Listening to the Answer
“So, where’d you go to college?”, followed by burying their face in the menu, checking their cell, or wildly looking around the room for the waitress.

7. Tipping Poorly
If you’re paying for some or all of the bill, you can bet the other person will notice how much tip you leave. Coming off as cheap or ungenerous is not attractive.

8.Cleaning Your Nails
Once I was at an (admittedly casual) restaurant with a guy, and he took a toothpick and started cleaning his nails. I died a thousand deaths, and am now writing this post as a ghost to warn future daters against doing the same.

9. Grabbing Food Without Asking
Look, you can probably have a fry. Just ask first.

10. Saying It and Spraying It
Maybe spit is hard to control, but, like….try.

Freaking out because I’m guilty of 3 out of the 10!!

Well mainly, you should be able to guess, judging from my dirty character & my disgusting personality…
You should be able to guess which few.


Can’t help it!
When I need to burp, I need to burp!
When my fingers are dirtied by the delicious food, I need to lick them!

Too strict. Too strict already.

But truth is, I’ll be turn off too la if my date does the same ;)

Well, things that seriously turn me off (meaning no more second date) will be…

Cellphone dependency
Asking a question & not listening to the answer
Tipping poorly
Cleaning your nails

Seriously if his iPhone is so much more interesting than me, then go friggin’ date your iPhone please.

And cleaning your nail!? God how dirty are they? And you’re gonna touch me with those “cleanly cleaned nails”? Eww.

Okay I’m not really generous when it comes to tipping but I’d like to knw that the guy in dating is not stingy.
Doesn’t matter if I am stingy or not!

And also, from my own experience, being rude to the service staff.

Wrong choice dude.
You mean you think you’re higher class than the waiters & waitresses?
You’d better be a president or something.

Okay if the guy can’t take my burping & picking teeth & finger licking, he can forget about it too because I am very gaseous.


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