Oh yes baby.

Last Request

Thankful, that I have so many friends & loved ones around me, concerned over the drama, reminding me to be strong & not fall into the pit again.

Sorry, that maybe I haven’t been the most “heartful” girl.

Glad, that now I’m sure I’ve made the right decision.

Well, honestly, it wouldn’t have a different outcome even without D’s appearance.
Because what mattered was what happened in the past 5 years, & not what happened within these 6 months.

Okay nuff’ said.

I think it’s only right & common sense to close this chapter up & move on.

If it was meant to work out, it would have worked out the first time.
Or second time.
Or third, even fourth.

Good bye for good.
It’s not all bad.
We had some pretty good times.
I wished you’re still the fun-loving adventurous rock-climber/kayaker/architect-to-be.
And not the cheating cabin crew.

But things changed, people changed.
You just gotta move along with the flow.

Gfs/bffs reading this, I’M FINE! No worries! Torture is over! You won’t have to put up with my drama anymore! ;)


Today I’m muthafucking PMSsy.
Sibei bad mood.
Sibei angry for nothing.
Sibei piss.
Sibei fierce.
Sibei buay song.
Sibei uncomfortable.
Sibei in pain.
Sibei aching.

And Sibei crude & not feminine.

Thanks for the muthafucking menses & menses cramp.
I wanna muthafucking fuck the menses cramp.

I really do understand now why people keep having babies one after another.
It just made sense!
10 months or none-menses-cramp-bullshit.

Sucks to be god

You knw something’s not right when you start posting private entries.
Especially me, someone who don’t really care much about privacy.

Shit this. I don’t think I’m ready to take on another roller-coaster ride do I?

Sucks to be god. Sorry, I am never satisfied, I know right!
I can find the tiniest bone in the biggest egg.
I can complain about what I don’t have & also complain about what I have.


For my BFF ❤


Celebrating & rejoicing for our more than 10 years of awesome friendship.

BFF ❤❤❤

The thought of not being able to be there… Really makes my eyes tear instantly.
And then I’ll start crying like right now :(

Did you know that we met each other even before our secondary 1 class starts?

Our mommies complained to each other about the buying book queues & all in the canteen. They don’t know each other but they are both so aunty that they clicked.

I saw her in her Changkat Changi Primary school uniform & her brown chop-bob hair.
I thought she was an ah lian.

When school finally start, I saw that she was in my class.

When she told me over our random dinner, I started crying (I know I’m such a crybaby!) because I am so happy.
So happy.
It’s a kind of happiness that I didn’t think I’ll ever experience.
The kind of happiness that you feel from the most bottom of your heart.
Maybe the same kind of happiness when you see your daughter all grown up or something, I don’t know.

But I really felt so happy.

Even now as I’m typing this, elations are pouring out from my eyes.

Everybody said my reaction was so over the top but I didn’t think so. And even if it was, I couldn’t control it because it came from my heart.

We’ve been together, closely knitted, but also widely apart for 10 years.

She’s the kind of best friend that you’d hear people say as “Even if we don’t meet everyday, don’t talk everyday, but when we meet up, it feels like home.”

Our lives are separating, splitting, taking different paths, but I know everything is still right at where they were.

It’s true they say in life, you’ll only need a few true friends. The rest can come & go.

I grateful to say that I think at 24, I’ve found 2. And they are more than enough for me already.

Oh god I’m so emotional I need to stop crying everytime I think of it.



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