Fat sad girl

Today is Easter Day, and Imma commemorate it with…

Ta dah! My very happy Easter bunny car. And of course the sexy bewitching yours truly in my “suit up” themed outfit.

My car is so cute that I feel that I should be giving free rides to kids & old folks or giving out free ice cream.

Anyway, I’m not a Christian so I don’t really know the meaning behind Easter Day. I know it’s something about Jesus coming back to life in 3 days (courtesy of Barney Stinson) but other than that, nah not a thing.

But I’m just gonna take it as a day for giving thanks.
And the fact that I’ve just had a fabulous 4 days long weekend… Best time to giving thanks.

And I also just realize I have everything that I wished for.

But damn, here comes the Monday blues!!

I was a happy slim girl on Thursday, and ended Sunday being a fat sad girl T_T

Off balancing

It’s Tuesday, and a gloomy one.
It sky looks like it’s gonna rain any time but yet, it is not.
I’m still in bed, still tore from yesterday’s work. I’ve been prone to give myself more stress than what it really is.
Just can’t wait for this weekend. Nothing special is happening but I’ve been working 7 days straight. And that’s when I really realize the importance of weekend!

Recently I’ve been toying with the idea of a kindle.
I used to hate the idea of it – electronic book. It’s so unreal & insincere. If you wanna read a book you go to the library & you get one & you flip it open & you inhale the smell of the pages.
You don’t turn one some electronic shit.

Butttt. Oh well. Look at my schedule now. It’s almost impossible to fork out the time to go to the library.

And look at my bag now. It can’t contain a book anymore. It’s just different. And I really wanna continue reading because it really centers my life. Yes now I’m a little off balance.

Sooo, yes a kindle. Sounds like a good idea. Sorry I judged you too quick.

Your gold

You know, everybody just wanna get a piece of the much desired life of the rich & famous.

Is money & fame all that worth it?
Is being normal & leading a normal down to earth life that undesirable? Or even embarrassing?

I always believe the god gives, & the god takes.
While he is giving you with the golds, he is taking something equivalent to the value of gold from you.
You may not see it but one day, you’ll realise it.


Oh and by the way I’ve gone red!
If you haven’t notice….
But nah that was two weeks ago, now I’m more of rusty reddish violetish….

It’s 4 o’clock in the morning.
And I just can’t sleep.
It can’t be the jet-lag because Genting & Singapore doesn’t have any time difference the last time I check.

It could just be me then.
Or perhaps the guilt of the lack of blogging that’s been eating my sleep subconsciously :/

But I have nothing new on the menu, except that I got busier because business has been BAD.
It always seems like you’re only busy when business is good.
But when business is good, it’s the good kinda busy. Like running around with aims & purposes.

But when business is bad, it’s the bad kinda busy. Like running around headlessly searching for something that you’re missing but you can’t find it because you have no idea what’s missing.

Anyway, although I’ve been busy, I took time out last weekend for a short trip to Genting, where the booze & the money is at.

It’s like the Las Vegas of Asia, no?
Well not exactly big fancy casinos. Big yes, fancy no.

But we partied continuously for the two nights that we were there & the next thing you know you’re down with severe sore throat & flu. That’s what aging is all about huh. It never fails to pop up unnecessary to remind you.

But I do realise the charm of gambling. I never did. But now I do, after witnessing the amount of money doubling within seconds. The all or nothing adrenaline rush. Just wow. And most of the times people are so optimistic. There’s almost no pessimistic individual around in the casino.
Everybody’s so sure that there’re gonna win, and even if they don’t, they will “the next round”. It’s just so interesting.

I’m never the type to believe in overnight millionaires. That’s why I’ve never bought the lottery or what have you. I’ve never believe my luck and also, I have this super pessimistic logic that if the god give you something, he will take something away from you and at the moment, I’m loving everything & everybody in my life (I’ve taken the initiative to remove all those that I don’t love from my life, I hope god don’t mind that) so I’m not looking for something to be taken away from me.

Anyhow, I had fun this weekend. More than I thought I would!
So now I’m nursing the aftermath.
And I’m working this weekend! See what I mean by I’m lifelessly busy?



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