DON’T YOU AGREE?

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BFF

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May the sun never sets in our life.

CHRGED

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Haven’t had such a good weekend in a long while.
Thank you for that.
Feeling recharged and also re-fattened but we’ll deal with the latter at a later timing.

Thank god for the recharge because I do have a lot on my hand at the current moment, battle to be fought, and victory to be attained.

And 1st August would be the first day at my new company.
I was feeling rather overwhelmed by all but now I’m feeling like I definitely am able to manage it all.

Thank you thank you thank you.
❤❤

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ILY

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I love my girls ❤❤

YES WE CAN!

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Not just pie… Cakes… Ice cream… Rice… Noodles… Burgers….

SPARKS

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Disappointed with myself.
I should be able to handle everything.

BFF!

In life, there’re a few friends that you’ll need to have:

• A doctor
• A lawyer
• A party person
• A mother person
• A mechanical/engineer

I think I have all, except for that lawyer friend, whom I desperately need now.

UGH.

NAOOOO

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And then my cousin posted this on his fb.
I went crazy.
I literally went crazy.
FUCK I NEED TO GET THIS FUCKING KUEH LAPIS IN MY MOUTH RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!

And I even wanna scold my cousin upside down because HOW COULD HE POST SUCH INSENSITIVE PIC ON HIS FB??! DOESN’T HE KNOW!?!??

Fuck and I’m on my bed drenched in sweat like I’m on some drug withdrawal because I’m trying to curb my cravings.

OH FUCK THIS IS SO BAD.
SO SO SO BAD.

THIS KUEH LAPIS.
THIS KUEH LAPIS.
I SWEAR I SWEAR IF ANYONE CAN BRING THIS TO ME I’ll MARRY YOU EVEN IF YOU’RE LIKE ALFRED OR MASAGOES.

T_T

ELM

Every month I’ll say “omg this is truly the worst PMS ever in my entire history!”
But this month… This month…

You know how a printer with like 20 outstanding print jobs but somehow it is jammed and everybody just keeps pushing its button but it is terribly jammed & oh well.

HELP!

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Can’t quite decide.
Was rooting for wolverine BUT green lantern also seems very very enticing.
And oh boy, iron man is also too charming. Would loveeee to get a feel of his arrogance.

BLOOMER

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Motto for the week.
I know it’s gonna be a tough week, and I know for sure I’m gonna be über stressed, but, remember, be always blooming.

Happy Monday peeps!

RAGER

I’m in such a writing mood today. Must be the side effects of my weekend hibernation (alcohol-free kept me insane, except for the free flow at the wedding, I paid for it duhhhh but I was driving but still, I paid for it!)

Anyhooo, my previous entry about the wedding and how I was wrecked by my previous relationships got me all worked up again so I’m gonna take that rage, put it on a page, take the page to the stage, blow the roof off the place.

So until now, I still don’t understand why do men cheat?
Seriously, it’s a mystery to me. Believe me, I’ve been asking all the guys that I’m close with, or even, not that close with, this question and you know what’s the most popular answer I get? “I don’t know, I don’t cheat, so I wouldn’t know.” PFFFFFT TYVM SELF-RIGHTEOUS MEN.

It’s just such a juvenile thing to do, playing with feelings, risking everything. Seriously, you’d think it’s just sadness and anger that the girlfriend is gonna feel, but TRUST ME, it is much much more than that.

It’s the confidence that she’s forever gonna face, the self-esteem, it is actually more like emotional abuse AND I BET I CAN SUE THEM FOR IT. 

Of course I’ve fixed that confidence part (kinda over did it a little, I don’t know how), but still, the trauma will live with you forever.

Every single guy that you date, is gonna make you doubt. Like, really? He’s having dinner with his parents? Really? He just “wanna be alone” tonight? Really? He is “playing badminton”? 

I mean fuck, you’re mindfucked for life. It totally ruins everything that you believe in.

BUT, as my bff said, ‘No man is gonna cheat forever.” which I think is kinda true (I HOPE).
At some point, every man is gonna stop cheating (nah I still hope both my exes continue to cheat, their new gf shouldn’t have it so easy), and perhaps the right woman is gonna make him stop cheating.

Okay, I’m just really gonna go pinterest and sleep soon, so I’m not gonna take the rage with me to bed, I don’t like that. 

JAYYYY

I was switching the radio stations in my car just yesterday and chanced upon this oh my, sweet endearing song that I haven’t heard of in a longggg time.

I missed it. And now I’m desperately trying to find this Fantasy album but guess what, it’s like sold out in a lot of CD shops.

How am I supposed to not do it illegally? Well except for the fact that I do not know how to burn a CD. Fineeeeeee.

I am always saying this, but chinese songs really do have a powerful emotional influence over you. They really do!

After listening to this song I just wanna immediately fall in love with the driver next to my car at the next traffic light.

But then after that a sad chinese song came on and it made me feel like whyyyy didddd I breakkk uppp withhhh myyyy bffffff, who is non-existent.

Seriously chinese songs are such emo shit, think twice before listening to them. I don’t understand how can people stand listening to them everyday, they must be living in dramatic, emotional roller-coaster everyday.

WEDDING MADNESS

There’s something about attending weddings in your twenties that makes you rethink your entire life and entire belief system and your faith system.

It’s like so many thoughts kept crashing into my mind throughout the wedding, from the march in (“really? oh so that’s the song they’ve chosen for their first march in…”), to the cake cutting, to the photography slide shows, to the horrible emcees (“did they even rehearse omg”) etc.

Apart from those comments which I politely kept to myself, there were those unforgivingly touching moments where my tears were just right there, about to spill out, but I didn’t as pride and ego wouldn’t allow me that (I was at the same table with my soon-to-be-ex-bosses and couple of my colleagues from other regions).

And in between every moment, there came this little annoying asshole that kept screaming “WHAT IF THIS DAY NEVER COME TRUE FOR ME!!! T_T” It’s like every minute okay. It’s so terrifying that I wanna do an exorcism on the spot to get rid of this motherfucker.

And then came the calculations of like how old is the bride and groom, how much was it per table, how much were the photography, how much blah blah blah, and am glad to say, I am too damn far from the estimated figure required to get marry. 

Meaning, by hook or by crook, if I do have to get marry, no matter how in love I am, or how pregnant I am, it is not possible. It is simply not possible for me to get that amount within, say, the next 3 years.

And c’mon, to give up that money, in exchange for a marriage certificate that may or may not even last for 10 years, is a little too risky. A branded bag or a car would have promise a more lasting relationship. 

Okay I’m being too sadist here aren’t I? 
No I still believe in love and all. I got so much goosebumps and tearing yesterday I swear I may have been more touched than the bride’s maid of honour (okay maybe not), but still, maybe I haven’t met the guy that I am willing to give up everything for.

Not that I am having a wonderful single life now, I do get a lot of days where I need need need a man to cuddle with, someone that I can throw tantrum to, someone that I can rant to, someone that you know, get in bed with. For now I have my source (don’t ask), but all I’m saying is, I guess after all the traumatising past relationships (YES TRAUMATISING & I’m not even exaggerating – Rudy & Derek both of you can go eat shit and get syphilis), I am not ready to believe in love and all that fairy tale crap yet.

What are the chances that my next boyfriend is not gonna cheat on me? 

ANYWAYS, I was just telling everybody that I’m such a crybaby it’s probably gonna be a total sobfest for me during my bffs’ wedding! Which I totally can’t wait.

And also, I came to the conclusion that weddings are just events to make all the single ladies out there worry for their dear life and I should most probably try not to attend any more of them to remain sane and not end up settling for the next best thing just because tick-tock tick-tock my clock is ticking. 

But on the same note, I’ve decided that during my wedding, I’m gonna fucking make sure it’s so sweet and romantic that I’M GONNA MAKE ALL THE SINGLE LADIES AT MY WEDDING CRY AND PANIC.

Muahaha because that’s how karma works.

Quotetastic Friday

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