Book hangover.
Seriously.. Why. Why didn’t he jump into the river..? Why did he let his shadow down..? Why did he want to live in his world. Why didn’t he return to the real world. Why does she exist in his consciousness? How can he choose to go to back without his shadow.
The truth is, I always want a happy ending but Haruki Murakami always always will not let his books end in the expected way :(