Raining Sucks

Location: Train
Time: 4.15pm

Firstly, I would like to thanks the fantastic rain that gave me a wonderful sleep all the way till 1.30pm. It was cold & perfect.

However, I would also like to fuck the rain, because it ruin my plan of picnic today. Sucks.

All in all, I woke up late, still raining, no picnic, no free bike ride & I’m here in the train, heading towards Vivocity, by myself, with the stupid ugly helmet, dressed for a picnic but with stupid cardigan cus it’s so cold & well, day quite ruined.

So plan changed to chilling out at Vivocity’s Pan Pacific Cafe & play our games. We just bought a new Upwords, that’s the whole purpose of the picnic! To play the Upwords! Ugh. Anyway we can still play at the cafe. & if the weather is better, we can head to Sentosa in the evening.

Oh well. Hate the rain. I specifically said that I don’t want it to rain today & there it is, raining all the way. Sucks.

Daily Falsie

Location: Bed
Time: 00.05am

“You have every reason in the world to feel good right now, Libra. Things are going well, and the foreseeable path ahead is quite smooth. There is or will be abundance in your life. It’s okay – go ahead and put a smile on your face. What’s that? Someone in your world is causing you a headache or a heartache? If so, all the more reason to embrace what’s going right in your world. If you loosen your grip on those bothersome thoughts, you will let in the full blast of goodness and light that is waiting for you.”

That’s my horoscope reading for today. I’ll check it every 12 midnight. It is always good. But now, I find it hard to believe. Well, it still gives me hope though.

I’m gonna sleep now. Hope it won’t rain tomorrow! Gonna make sandwich for picnic. Yay!


Location: Bed
Time: 9.42pm

I’m currently waiting in front of the iPad for all my games to be downloaded. Another 20mins. Ugh.

I miss Playnation. I miss town. I know I’m gonna be sick of town once I go there but I just miss it now.

I think I’m gonna fall sick because my stupid nose has been itching the whole damn day & I’ve been sneezing like non-stop. Which is very bad because poor people are not allowed to fall sick you know that?

Anyway I think I’ll be joining the nursing agency for the time being.

So let’s see, I can only work on Tuesday next week! Next Monday I have class, Wednesday is clubbing for Eil’s birthday, Thursday is post-clubbing day, Friday is a weekend, my fav day! And Saturday & Sunday are weekends! Nobody works on weekends!

See, I’m so not motivated that’s why I can’t do the agency thing. Mmm. Need to think of something else.

I can’t believe I’ve been unemployed for more than a month already! Seriously. No income for 1 month already. That’s a very serious issue because I haven’t been out of income since 17. Feeling really uneasy.

Hot Dog Bush

Location: Bed


I’ve been like this for the entire day. Just in the house, walking about, wandering around my tiny house.

I’m bored. I wanna go out :(
I hope it won’t rain tomorrow because I wanna go picnic.
And I hope it will be a good weekend this week.

Can’t wait for Eil’s birthday celebration at Timbre@Arthouse. Been so long seen I went to Timbre. Time to soak up that atmosphere! I hope Enigma is on so I can see my favorite guy :) Well I know the Good Fellas will be at Substation. But I really hope it’s not 53A. God I hate that band. The vocals are good. But the lead singer is just a little too “think I’m a big shot” and don’t even get me started about the guitarist!
And I am totally ready for the MAXI theme! Awesome dress. Well it’s too long, so I had to cut it. Granted I should have sew the loose ends up but well, can’t be bothered. Who can tell right, it’s at the feet.

[The dress was so awesome that when I wear it for Mr R to see, he literally went shock and uttered some “Oh you look pretty… You look slim….” like those scenerios in the movie where the man was to bring the girl out for a Prom or some fanciful dinner, and when the girl appear at the door steps, the man will look up and be shock by how pretty the lady is. HEHEHEHE]


I’m being overwhelmed by boredom. I’m gonna bang my head against the wall now.

Miss Foxy

Location: Bed

I’m rolling on my bed now. Literally rolling. I can’t seem to lie flat. My back aches due to prolong couch-potato-position.

I’ve just purchased my death tickets for this Sunday. Whopping $480 for 4 tickets + express. And do you know that the express ticket is only valid once per ride? Meaning you have to re-queue if you wanna take more than once. No more cutting queue. Sucks right. Heart throbbing pain.

I wanna talk about Miss Foxy.

Miss Foxy is a popular girl. Everybody knows about her. All the girls in the world would learn about her presence since young.

She has been widely introduced to the world since an early age. She is commonly known as 狐狸精, slut, third party, family-breaker, etc [personally I love the 狐狸精 name. Has a kick to it].

In fact, the first time I learn about her presence was in some drama-mama TCS drama where, obviously, the 狐狸精 appeared & broke up a family, the children all hated the 狐狸精.

The wife slapped the husband is screaming “HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!”

& the 狐狸精 with thick make up, purple eyeshadow [blue eyeshadow suits them more in my opinion!] red lipstick will then tell the guy “C’mon let’s go & leave the 黄脸婆alone! 也不照照镜子!” then diao the wife abit & left with the guy.

That was the first time that I learn:

1) True love do not exist
2) Marriage doesn’t garantee you a secured love
3) That guys do stray
4) That guys like to play with women
5) That there are slutty women around on Earth
6) That as a wife, you cannot become 黄脸婆
7) Beware of women with thick & colorful make up!

I think it’s a bad influence because it already made me judge guys without even being in a relationship yet. And forever on I’ll always be paranoid about it & will forever believe that all guys cheat.

See how wrong that is?! I swear I’m not gonna let my daughter watch any of it next time.

Ok I’m gonna sleep now & stop thinking about any Miss Foxy!

Fat Ass

Location: Bed
Time: 11.24pm

Oh. My. God.
I am a FAT ASS.

You will not believe the amount of food I’ve consumed these few days. It’s like a month-worth of food for the poor.

I had murtabak chicken, cheese prata, fried rice, 9 sticks of satay, pizzas, sandwich, fish & chips, more fried rice, potato chips etc.

Omg right! And guess what I’ve been doing all these while? Sitting/lying on my bed watching funshion. The only exercise I get, is occasional screams [screaming exerts the tummy muscle a little actually if you are wondering how is screaming exercise] from watching all the horror movies & of course, laughing from all the comedies.

I am a pig.

Yes I know I made a big hoo-haa about loving your body & loving all my fatness. But it gets serious when you can’t fit into size 10 anymore!

Anyway, I gotta tell you, I watched this horror movie today, & it totally scare the hell out of me. Been a long while since I watch a horror movie that is near to this level. I think it’s the ghost. In this movie, it’s my favourite type of ghost. Balding with green skin hunch back skinny type. Yup I hate that. Really creeps me out. & small girls also. & I love haunted house! Haunted house are scary! Haunted house are the best kind!

And also, something to note, please do not buy a house because it’s cheap. When it’s cheap, it’s haunted. Serious. No other reasons.

Ok very stressed about job-search currently. Ugh. I don’t know what to do. I wish I can really just find a job that I want. But it’s definitely more difficult than it sounds. Even if I already have a specific industry, there are like 10 different job in that industry. Oh God I need help :( I’m so lost & broke. Maybe I should just take it. Mmmm :(


Location: Room
Time: 00.00am

How do you prepare yourself for an interview for a dream job?

I’ve ironed my clothes, hang it out outside, packed my bag. What else?

I’ve put all my hopes into one tiny bottle & lock it deep in the closet of my mind, and I have a good plan of shopping for the emergency use.

Mmm. Really don’t wanna get my hopes up at all. I hate the disappointment that comes with it. It can really crush you :(

Anyway, today went well. I’m happy! Oh I don’t mean the interview. I mean the dinner with Mr R’s Sister & Mother. The mom wasn’t coming originally, but she end work early so she join us for dinner. Was totally in a short dress, heels & outrageous hair-band. But mmm okay, it went well.

My feet are so tired. So aching. I hate that pair of Pull & Bear’s heels. Killer. But it’s the only pair I can wear for interviews :( So meaning I still have to wear that again tmr. Oh torture.

Ok I’m gonna sleep now. Good night everybody. Wish me luck. I need all the luck in the entire universe now.


Location: Clark Quay Station
Time: 4.35pm

Shortest interview I’ve ever been to. It’s not even an interview. They don’t even have an opening. Ugh feel cheated. Anyway gonna go town now. Meeting Mr R’s sister later. Gonna make myself happy. Not gonna care about job search anymore. Worse come to worse, I’ll take a loan or something. Ugh, don’t even wanna think about it. Such depressing issue is really ruining my spirit.

Tomorrow will be a good one. Yes it will be :)

Gonna go town & shop for some awesome maxi dress for this Saturday.

Ah I’m very bothered.


Location: Train towards Joo Koon
Time: 3.16pm

Ok I’m out. Again, in my only formal suit, heading to yet another interview. I think I’ve lost hope already. So I’m have no antcipation no nervousness no nothing. Sad.

It’s a bloody hot day. Serious. Not a day for long tight high waist.

Anyway, was out the whole day yesterday. “On a date :)”


Went Mustafa & was shocked to find out that Mustafa had expanded! Soon it’s gonna turn the entire Serangoon road into Mustafa-land. Seriously. I bought a few like miscellaneous stuff. Haha that’s what Mustafa is for right? Those things that you never thought you’ll need.

Oh & I met a guy that I know from clubbing there. It’s awkward. He’s with his gf & I’m with Mr R.

Okay hope it’s gonna be a great week. Please let me get a job by this week. Oh God.


Okay, just about 30minutes away from my lovely jetblack hair :) I’m fast ain’t I?
And the henna is just like $1.20 per packet! I bought 2 though the uncle said one should be enough. But 1 is never enough for my hair.

Anyway, the bad thing is, now, BOTH OF MY PALMS ARE LIKE STAINED WITH BLACK HENNA. It’s ugly! Omg I feel like some construction worker working in dirt for his entire life and the dirt will never ever come off! Shit man. I didn’t have gloves and of course $1.20 per pack henna does not include gloves, and I don’t remember using gloves the previous few times. What the hell. What should I do! What gets off henna? Omg I have interview on Monday and Tuesday leh! Omg need to wear gloves out. Even my nails are black. No wonder only Indian uses them. Their skin are already kind of dark  by default [I am not being racist or what, just stating the fact. Like chinese skin is yellow. Ok?].

Oh God very affected by black palms. Can’t wait for new hair though.

Okay realise that I AM indeed impulsive. C’mon I just got the black-hair idea like 1 hour ago and now I am halfway through the process already. But being impulsive may not always be a bad thing right? Why no call it spontaneous instead? I am spontaneous! Ah ha! There it is! See, it’s not a bad thing.


Okay attempted to ask 2 indian friends of mine, both didn’t reply. UGH.


Side-track: I just wanna say that I get very very pissed off when I search for “喜剧” in Funshion, Mr & Mrs Smith will be appear. Like WHAT THE FUCK? HOW IS THAT FUNNY? THAT SHOULD BE A FUCKING HORROR MOVIE OR THRILLER OR LIKE WHATEVER LA. It’s just not funny. It’s definitely more horror than thriller. Watching how your husband get seduced away, horror enough to give you nightmares every night! Very piss. Needs to write in to Funshion to let them exclude that from “喜剧“! It’s fucking not  la! Omg.



Time: 12.45am

Just finish another movie. With Mom. She invited herself to my movie-watching-time. She heard me screaming in my room when I was watching Dead Silence [which was really quite scary ok] and found out that I was watching horror movie. Then she happily went to the living room and off the TV, and then came in to watch with me.

After that, she kept asking if there’s more movie. So I had to invite her. Mmmm.

Anyway, my hair is done! Oh beautiful jet-black. I love you. My palms still stains a little. Hope it’ll be off by tomorrow. Oh I hope black hair brings me good luck for the job-search :) Daddy was very happy that I color it black. He said it’s better for job-search. Mmm.

So now I’m very very very ASIAN. I have yellow skin, and very black hair.




Location: Room
Time: 6.50pm

I just painted my nails on Wednesday. But today, I realise that my middle finger’s paint has already chipped off. Nice.

Somehow life is like painting nails. You manage to get everything done nicely, looking shiny shimmery, you do the base coat, you paint the color layers over layers, you like it dry, go over with top coat, quick dry, you know, the complete steps.

But somehow, it starts to chip off days after. Sucks isn’t it?

I feel so ugly. I’m having like horrible break out due to whatever reason. I have my mirror with me on my bed and you know, just to check it out every 5 minutes. Horrible. I got so fed up that I put make up on. At least now I feel better. And with my bad fringe, it’s juts depressing.

I got a secret. I feel like dyeing my hair black again. Oh gosh. It’s like a devil seedling. Once it’s implanted in my mind, I can’t take it away. I’m gonna do it.

The funny thing is, when I see Lena Fujii, I’m all “BROWN HAIR BROWN HAIR COPPER HAIR COPPER HAIR JAP STYLE JAP STYLE”



You see what I mean? She’ s so gorgeous I love her! But when I see Zooey Deschanel or Katy Perry, it’s like “OMG BLACK HAIR BLACK HAIR RED LIPSTICK RED LIPSTICK SHIRT FRINGE SHORT FRINGE”


Can’t decide! They are all soooo, omg gorgeous! Different style but both style are like so nice. Mmmm. But lemme tell you, once I have that idea in me, I’m not getting rid of it till it’s done. So, on short, I might be blackening my hair soon. And black dyes are like mighty cheap please. And so easy to apply. Brown dyes are expensive, and impossible to get my hair brown because of black-dye-history. MMMMMMMMMM. Loving my black hair theories :)


Oh and you know Zooey Deschanel? She’s awesome. Mr R is seriously in love with her, so am I. And her style is awesome too. She’s got this, I don’t know what, ?London style going on. It’s just amazing. Not for our weather though. We have even, a couple of times, tried to incorporate “Deschanel” into our “daughter’s” name, but it all turn out weird. We do have one in mind, not gonna tell. I am very against “future-baby-names-thief’. It’s a serious crime in my law.


Okay, that settles. I’m gonna dye my hair black like tomorrow or later. It’s so easy. My ma-ma shop even sell the hair dye. It’s henna by the way. And it’s cheap :) Omg can’t wait. Anyway I hate my hair color now. My roots’ all grown out. I look like Malaysian. And previously when people saw my new hair color, they were like, black suits you better. Mmm :)





My very messy cupboard of wonderful things. I love it but it’s too messy. So many bottles.

You know what, my hair is touching my butt. So long. But I have a good reason not to cut, because I DON’T HAVE MONEY TO CUT.

Pizza Saturday

Location: Kitchen
Time: 1.50pm


Just wake up. Very moodless cus I hate to stay at home on a Saturday. C’mon! It’s bright and sunny out there! Birds are chipping, people are partying/shopping, and here I am at home ordering my pizza delivery. Oh for crying out loud.


So sian that Mr R has is going HK for tonight. Weekends totally ruined. Everybody is busy, with boyfriends etc, only me! I need to do something man.

And I cut my fringe again last night. Again, too short. Ugh. Never mind, I’m staying at home anyway.


I’m looking forward to next week. Hopefully it’s the week that I can get a job like finally. Interview on Monday and Tuesday. So far, that’s all. And big plans next weekend. Saturday is for Eil’s birthday and Sunday is for Mr R’s birthday, we’re going Universal Studio! Omg but you know the ticket is like a whopping $120 for a weekend+express? That’s like fucking shit la. Seriously. And I don’t even wanna ride those scary rides. But I think I’m gonna be forced to do it because it’s his birthday and both his friend and the girlfriend are apparently those brave people who LOVE scary rides. Oh God. I might puke I might get very bad headache due to the straining. I’m really DREADING!!!

Fucking shit just read the Rides Details from the website. Holy shit. I am really gonna puke. There’s this indoor Mummy Roller Coaster which is just gonna kill me alive. What if I pee/shit in my pants [read: karma for laughing at Mr Toh]!


“The Cylon Raider is a suspended roller coaster that will turn your world upside down as it runs through vertical loops, corkscrews and cobra rolls. The Human Viper Mark II is a seated roller coaster that zooms at 90km/h and propels you fourteen storeys into the air while pursuing the enemy. Riders on both coasters will experience unbelievable thrills as they twist, turn & narrowly avoid collision.”

That’s for the Cyclon ride.


“Plagued on all sides by huge fireballs, swarms of scarab beetles and an army of warrior mummies, all in total darkness. Can you survive the awesome power of Imhotep’s curse or will you be entombed inside forever?”

The Mummy ride. Yes I will be entombed inside forever. Thank you very much.


I think I have never ever sat on a roller coaster ride before in my entire life. Omg just realised that I’m such a boring person. Never ever had a roller coaster ride before? And I live in the 21st century? Seriously? Not even in Genting or HK?

I think I’m gonna start having nightmares until next Sunday when my nightmare is gonna become reality. Very nice. Why why why can’t we just book a hotel and have a relaxing day celebrating his birthday? Why must we go through this kind of hellish celebration? Omg :(


Pizza is here!



You know I’m sucha fool for you…

“Linger” – The Cranberries

If you, if you could return, don’t let it burn, don’t let it fade.

I’m sure I’m not being rude, but it’s just your attitude,
It’s tearing me apart, It’s ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn’t be so confused and I wouldn’t feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I’m such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

My Sexy Mole


I love this version. I like him. I don’t know what’s his name but I like him. His voice is so sexy. And his mole… He got a sexy mole too.


Location: Bed

Just one post before I sleep. I’m bored now because I don’t wanna sleep. It’s a Friday night! Who sleeps early on a Friday night [thought it’s already 1am]!

I’m bored. I actually wanted to do a full entry on NURSING & why am I leaving it. But I think I’ll leave it for tomorrow. I might fall asleep halfway through. So will you.

Anyway, I went to Arab Street today. Haji Lane. It’s not as interesting as it used to be. Every shop seems to be selling the same things. Did not manage to get the maxi-dress that I need for Eil’s birthday. You know short people are not allowed to wear maxi? It’s like a crime. Seriously. And I’ll never ever find one that fit :(


So, you know what they say, your head is the clearest in the middle of the night [I said it].



1) Get driving license by end of this year

2) Cut down alcohol in-take by 50% [limited to 2-shots, 1-house pour per clubbing. NO HEAVY DRINKS]

3) Of course, get a job and STICK TO IT TILL END OF YEAR

4) Have a stable mood condition

5) Get a BF

6) Have a stable relationship

7) Save at least 5000SGD by end of year [that is almost 1000SGD PER MONTH!]

8) Get a Wii [Val, don’t get your hopes up, please see number 7)]

9) MUST DRESS UP FOR HALLOWEEN [and go club, not stay at home looking like a fool. And also, must go club WITH friends, not dress up go club ALONE]

10) Lose 5kgs [least priority]

11) Learn Salsa

12) Learn to cook more dishes


I am confident I can do it. Totally.

I’m fucking bored. Thought doing resolutions will take at least 1 hour. In the end, took me less than 10 mins. Kuakuakua.


I sooo need to move on with my life. Need to accomplish even more now that I took this month-long break. I must not waste anymore of my youth. 23, not young anymore :(

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